And as i cry away at night
I think of you
I pick up the phone and press the buttons
I need you
As the double rings start
My thoughts drift away
I think of things which have upset me
The ringing becomes a rhythm for my thoughts
I think about myself
My family, friends
My future
And as i think, the ringing stops
I dial again
The rings become a background again
I think of you
I think of things i need to change
I think of cigarettes and smoke rings
And my thoughts come back to the dial rings
As i realise that the tears have stopped
I think again
Do i really need to do this
I am strong
At least i need to show that i am strong
As the ringing continues for the seventh time
I cut the call
I am fine
I don't need you
I am okay now
And when you call back tomorrow
I will say i just wanted to say hi.
*Artwork by Ken-Wong